This friday, i was traveling to Brno to the theater on Mahlers symphony No. 2 in c minor with my professor of my major subject on conservatory, and i was really sad as i am always...but because the way to Brno is really long and my professor hasnt got a radio in a car so we talk...and i was in sad mood so i tell almost everything...also about my try to commit sucide...and he is Christian but not catholic the protestant one and he told me about the first way of his faith and then he told my how his renewed faith saved his life...and i want to save my life to then i open my heart and accept Jesus as my god. But its a long way and i have got something really evil im my soul and i dont know what is it...and i need gods help to fight it...to win. And also im not baptized so it comes as soon as possible to be done...so i can become a fully Christian too.